Life and Death

Am so confused, why do people use this word when they trying to console '' God giveth and God taketh'' it does not make any sense at all, i believe that God will not make anyone die so young, believers will say ''its destined to happen'' thats just bull shit, a man of God said to a mother mourning her son, the lord has taken him because he gave u(ur son) to raise and the owner is back, he will repay you for the work..ANOTHER BULLSHIT....... The death of a young person is not of the lord, i believe the devil has come to Steal, Kill and to destroy. Its in the Bible.



Death is a topic i dont discuss at all, i have only lost two people that i know very well, My Dad and My friend's brother. But ever since my friends boyfriend died last thursday i concluded that God did not take the young man away. What hurts so most about loosing him is that he had a bright future ahead of him, he was so ambitious, very intelligent and God fearing. I met him september 2007 , He comes over to my house a lot with friends, we joke, play around and gives me the craziest maths question to work out.

Anyways i still cant believe he is gone so soon, i cant stop thinking about him. Now am being so real to myself, i used to hate the fact that one day My Mother will die, maybe loose someone so close to me, but the truth is, thats what life is about, there is time to laugh, cry, there is time for everything, Death is a topic i have discussed with my boyfriend and we discussed about how we gonna handle such situation, if i end up marrying him, i really wanna go 1st because i cant handle living my life without him. well thats many years from now, cause i intend to die when am 101 years old. lol.. SeRioUsIly

BoYFrieND OvEr DoSe

Whats wrong with me, i am addicted to my boyfriend, its so unreal, i just want more n more(not wat u thinking) but to be with him everyday.... He is so loving but i need to do sumthing about dis crazy addiction, i miss him so much and i want to be with him everyday and when am at work i think about him, he has occupied my mind...... Although he is not complaining bout the love overload but i can't help it, i just have to express my love to him... Am thinking may b i should relax a little bit. i dont wanna end up possesive or jealous cos dats how it starts...i know he loves me so much, but he is the only man i have ever loved this much.. I just dont even trust my self to let him breath a little. Am scared of loosing him.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to Everyone, I pray that God will grant each and every one their heart desire and so much more......Anyways am so happy that 2008 is over, that year made me cry, hate being alive and also fruastrated. the only good thing that 2008 gave to me is my Boyfriend who is the most incredible creature i have ever met....(hahaha) definately my soul mate. (I can feel it)





List of things i want for 2009 and at the end of it all am gonna see how many am gonna achieve before the year runs out......





1) Good Health


2) Great job


3) Good pay


4) Start my Post Grad course


5) Learn How To Drive


6) Travel to Chicago 3 times this year (Feb. summer and winter)


7) Play the American Lottery


8) Get a Car


9) Pay all my Credit Card Bills


10) Worryless and Love Myself



11) Party More



12) Open a New Savings Account



13) Cry less



14) Travel to london to visit my brothers



15) visit my sisters more often





Thats not much to achieve now, i know i have listed some material things but thats part of life, whenever i achieve anything am gonna tick it off, but really its not hard to achieve i just have to be willing and be more focused thats all... If i have to choose anything first i would say Good health because Health is Wealth, right now i have a really bad magraine and am at work, i wanna be in bed right now but i cant thats why i need a real job thats not so stressful, What i really need is a job, a real job that i can wake up in the morning with a smile on my face not a job that they dont recognise you for your hard work and all your great effort...that just annoys me alot.. so i will keep praying and praying because at this stage thats all i can do because i have made up my mind not to be part of reccession and all....i know its hard but its not gonna be hard for me.





HAPPY NEW YEAR

Whats Happening

Millions watched Barack Obama on the 4th of november become the 1st Black president of United State.... Definately a great feeling to know am part of History........this has been the most talked about election, even teenagers are interested in knowing whats going to happened to them, George W Bush has really made things so bad that every one in the state are really scared about their future.... Does this mean now that Barack is now the president Elect things will go back to normal? Really am so frustrated about the world right now, things aint going normal people are loosing their jobs and i dont feel secure with my job, God forbid but if i loose my job or dont get another job on time am in deep shit....

whatever suitation i find myself am grateful to God atleast am alive and healthy.

Facebook is the best thing now, its better than sugar, its become part of my life and i dont feel okay if i dont go on it in a day, its like starvation u need it to survive, well not really. Facebook has really changed the world, almost everyone i know is on this crazy thing. May God bless mark(whatever) is surname is, he has invented something i know will be around for a long time, i found my cousins, old friends and people that i would never think in a million years i will find, and its the only way i get to check if my friends are doing okay( Photos, status msgs and all)...... why didnt i come up with such idea..

I was watching oprah show the other day and i learnt so much from it, she was talking about future and how u can make all you dreams come true by Faith....not faith as in believing God for something but faith as in u believe that u can get there. there were lots of people who gave their testimony.. jim carey the hollywood comedian said in 1994 he wrote a check of 10 million dollars and left it in his wallet, now why would he do such a thing but he placed it in his wallet for years and he never removed it believing that one day he will make that money and in 1996 or so he was offered 10 million for a movie. now thats not luck thats because he set himself up to that standard, another lady worried so much about not making money in her business and set her self to a weekly target and how many customer she wants to get in a day...the whole thing behind this faith thing is you have to be positive with your thinking. Right now am looking for a job in pharmaceutical and that has really bothered me for a while, and after that i have stopped worring myself about jobs and when am going to get one, am setting myself to a higher standard and where i wanna be in 4 years time and what i want to achieve by then...



like they say your future is in your hands, dont sit down and blame God for everything, Heaven helps those who help them selves.

Life Sucks

wow, finally things are beginning to go well for me this month, well except for that huge amount i have to pay for my post-grad.. but i know God will make a way for me, anyways i am a little bit pissed off at myself for one tiny mistake i made this month which means am not gonna see my boo in october i have to wait a little longer, but am dying to see him, i just wanna spend that one week with him in october, londistance sucks but we really coping well and he is just so wounderful, cant wait for the day when all this will be over when we can finally live in the same country as boyfriend and girlfriend, hmmmm let me re phrase that Man and wife...hahaha one day it will come to past....(please God am so used to him right now and i cant afford not to be with him).

i have a question, my very good friend has a problem and this problem is a shamefull thing to talk to anyone about, i wanna talk to her about it but i dont want her to feel bad or sad i just wanna help her find a way if that involves getting professional help, really i dont like the way she suffers in silence.


oooo my ex was around for a week and really it made me appreciate my present boyfriend in every way, not that i did not but now i know how lucky i am to be with him cuz the ex dude is a useless man and he will continue to be useless....feel sorry for his present girlfriend the unlucky woman..

gotta sleep, to be continued 2mro

posh

Victoria Beckham arriving at Harvey Nichols to promote her new perfume 'Signature'.

Her hair was swept up, her shoes were silver Christian Louboutin stilettos, her dress was a white Giambattista Valli number (with a small polar bear on the back) - and the whole effect was very Audrey Hepburn.

Hold up...wat sort of diet is this woman on, seriousily she has no flesh...i dont think i wanna be as skinny as u... she looks like a walking skeleton..apologises to all VB fans out there but am a hugh fan myself this woman needs meat....may be proper african food....

2008 go on with ur wahala(trouble)

Am sick and tired of this year, i cant wait for it to be over, this year has been nothing but a sad year, i just cant take it anylonger, am gonna loose it, the reason why am still chilling is b'cuz of my man..he has been so good to me and really without him this year would have swallowed me and prolly u never know...hmmmmmmmmmmmm...

I just cant wait to get out of this country to a place where i wont get intouch with my families or know my where-about..if i need u i'll call u.....my mum n sis and people generally have been annoying me, its like a bad dream i wanna wake up...some body...is this the price i pay for been independent, just wana tell dem stay the 4k out of my life...(it would be easier to say if they white) damn it, why u planning my future at the end of it, its gonna be me and me alone to face the world, so wats all this pressure about, i need to learn from my mistakes and all.. i just wish i aint the last born, it sucks seriousily, i really dont know wat to do, but one thing i know is that am gonna do what i wanna do and i aint gonna listen to no body.....

Am old enough to know wats best for me, right now i really wanna leave this so called country so bad, this country is depressing,i miss home............ i just wanna fly like a bird and be free, who cares if i get a masters or not....i live my life the way i wanna....