Life and Death

Am so confused, why do people use this word when they trying to console '' God giveth and God taketh'' it does not make any sense at all, i believe that God will not make anyone die so young, believers will say ''its destined to happen'' thats just bull shit, a man of God said to a mother mourning her son, the lord has taken him because he gave u(ur son) to raise and the owner is back, he will repay you for the work..ANOTHER BULLSHIT....... The death of a young person is not of the lord, i believe the devil has come to Steal, Kill and to destroy. Its in the Bible.



Death is a topic i dont discuss at all, i have only lost two people that i know very well, My Dad and My friend's brother. But ever since my friends boyfriend died last thursday i concluded that God did not take the young man away. What hurts so most about loosing him is that he had a bright future ahead of him, he was so ambitious, very intelligent and God fearing. I met him september 2007 , He comes over to my house a lot with friends, we joke, play around and gives me the craziest maths question to work out.

Anyways i still cant believe he is gone so soon, i cant stop thinking about him. Now am being so real to myself, i used to hate the fact that one day My Mother will die, maybe loose someone so close to me, but the truth is, thats what life is about, there is time to laugh, cry, there is time for everything, Death is a topic i have discussed with my boyfriend and we discussed about how we gonna handle such situation, if i end up marrying him, i really wanna go 1st because i cant handle living my life without him. well thats many years from now, cause i intend to die when am 101 years old. lol.. SeRioUsIly

BoYFrieND OvEr DoSe

Whats wrong with me, i am addicted to my boyfriend, its so unreal, i just want more n more(not wat u thinking) but to be with him everyday.... He is so loving but i need to do sumthing about dis crazy addiction, i miss him so much and i want to be with him everyday and when am at work i think about him, he has occupied my mind...... Although he is not complaining bout the love overload but i can't help it, i just have to express my love to him... Am thinking may b i should relax a little bit. i dont wanna end up possesive or jealous cos dats how it starts...i know he loves me so much, but he is the only man i have ever loved this much.. I just dont even trust my self to let him breath a little. Am scared of loosing him.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to Everyone, I pray that God will grant each and every one their heart desire and so much more......Anyways am so happy that 2008 is over, that year made me cry, hate being alive and also fruastrated. the only good thing that 2008 gave to me is my Boyfriend who is the most incredible creature i have ever met....(hahaha) definately my soul mate. (I can feel it)





List of things i want for 2009 and at the end of it all am gonna see how many am gonna achieve before the year runs out......





1) Good Health


2) Great job


3) Good pay


4) Start my Post Grad course


5) Learn How To Drive


6) Travel to Chicago 3 times this year (Feb. summer and winter)


7) Play the American Lottery


8) Get a Car


9) Pay all my Credit Card Bills


10) Worryless and Love Myself



11) Party More



12) Open a New Savings Account



13) Cry less



14) Travel to london to visit my brothers



15) visit my sisters more often





Thats not much to achieve now, i know i have listed some material things but thats part of life, whenever i achieve anything am gonna tick it off, but really its not hard to achieve i just have to be willing and be more focused thats all... If i have to choose anything first i would say Good health because Health is Wealth, right now i have a really bad magraine and am at work, i wanna be in bed right now but i cant thats why i need a real job thats not so stressful, What i really need is a job, a real job that i can wake up in the morning with a smile on my face not a job that they dont recognise you for your hard work and all your great effort...that just annoys me alot.. so i will keep praying and praying because at this stage thats all i can do because i have made up my mind not to be part of reccession and all....i know its hard but its not gonna be hard for me.





HAPPY NEW YEAR