Its Being A while

Really Ms O, its because of you am updated my blog, i have been very busy and life has taken a whole new Dimension for me, 7 months ago i was very vulnerable, i was like the most easiest person you can take advantage of, But real life experiences has thought me to be strong and make decisions that is good for me and not for people around me, in other words i have learnt over the past couple of months to love my self first (If i dont how will i love somebody else). Life has been difficult and challenging for me, especially after relocated down to london from a different part of an european country really showed me that may be families are not always there for you, They definately know how to get involved in your personal and private life but when it comes to your familybeing there during the most difficult time of your life, no body wants to get involved..Is it just my family or a general thing....

still pretty/Serious wahala

Last month was my birthday, Whoaoooooooo am now 22 years old, Before my birthday last month i had a different view about my age and me getting older everyday, so i tend to lie about my age alot, i prefer to be 19, 20 than to be 21 or 22, so i was not really happy about turning 22 because i felt old all of a suden, i felt like i should be married or something since everyone in my family especially my sisters are putting pressure on me to introduce my boyfriend, seriousily am not ready for the whole boyfriend introduction, the funniest thing is my mum is so concerned about me not introducing my boyfriend to her, so whenever she calls me she says hmm if you get pregnant dont abort it, as pretty as you are, you telling me you have a man in your life, she really cracks me up, i understand where is coming from, am the last born, all my bros and sis all have children so she cant wait to see mine, well thats old skool mum am not ready for that mehn, i got my whole life ahead of me, my career as well thats so 15 years ago where a woman at 22 will be forced to get married.....


Anyway thats family i guess they care about you so much that they can't mind their own business, My views about being 22 changed at my birthday party, i felt really young, i felt like i have just started my life, most of my friends are older and a few are younger than me but i dont look that bad for a 22 years old lady, I still get people thinking am 17, 18, but thats exactly what i like so when they ask me how old i am and i tell them am only 22, i love the reaction on their faces....hehehe( who doesn't like that)

Last night i was on the phone talking to one of my very good friend, she just finished chatting on yahoo messanger with her boyfriend, she called him on messenger to say goodnight, my call came in like 2 minutes after that, she told me she had sex with her ex boyfriend last saturday not only that she told me everything in full details, how big his dick is, and how much she really enjoyed the whole love making, i told her what is she looking for she has a new boyfriend in london she can fly down to meet him if she feels so horny, its just 45 mins on the plane.

i was very honest with her last night but she is my friend can't be giving out to her like that and besides i dey enjoy the story no be small, she went on about the sex for 15mins and how she would never find a dick that good again and she has him there on stand by whenever she needs him no wahala. i felt irritated am not that kind of girl, she is an adult and she can make her own decisions but as a friend i can only say a few things its up to her to listen. i just hate when people cheat if you wanna fuck around thats cool but don't mess with people's mind, dont go into a longdistance relationship if you are not ready to face the package it comes with, the conversation did not end there, we made fun of her ex, she was like she must have been on some kind of spell to have had sex with him, she still feels sick when she thinks about him, the sex and his looks.



Apperantly the dude is getting bigger, his nose has doubled up, his stomach has blown up,and he wont leave her alone, she wants me to delete him on my facebook, she said thats the only way he finds out what she has been up to, anyway i aint deleting no body, all of a sudden she hanged up, at that point i wasn't gonna call back, i was tired, but she called back saying ''oh my God am so dead, my yahoo messenger is on and pete is online, he did not hang up'' oh shit i said to myself, i was confused and worried, she was already panicking ''o God its over, how am i gonna explain what i did, ooo lord'' it was a bit funny but how dumb can she be, she called his phone he switched it off, she started worrying even more, i called him as well he wasnt picking up, she said to me ''its over, i cheated on him, how can i explain that to him, i cant even cover up i said it with my own mouth'' she drove out to get phone credit around 2 in the morning just to call him, seriousily i was worried for my friend, apparently she told the new guy she has only slept with one dude in her entire life, she knows no other man apart from her ex.



what i would have done!!! hmmm i dont know but get ready to beg...today around 14:00 she called him and found out that his laptop froze on him, so all the conversation we had last night he heard none of it, she was relieved, i was relieved as well because it would have been very hard to convince pete that she is not that kind of girl..(who am i kidding) i hope she remains faithful to him, he is a really cool dude, he has a lot to offer her and am sure she would not be so stupid to go fuck her ex....yulk...

Life and Death

Am so confused, why do people use this word when they trying to console '' God giveth and God taketh'' it does not make any sense at all, i believe that God will not make anyone die so young, believers will say ''its destined to happen'' thats just bull shit, a man of God said to a mother mourning her son, the lord has taken him because he gave u(ur son) to raise and the owner is back, he will repay you for the work..ANOTHER BULLSHIT....... The death of a young person is not of the lord, i believe the devil has come to Steal, Kill and to destroy. Its in the Bible.



Death is a topic i dont discuss at all, i have only lost two people that i know very well, My Dad and My friend's brother. But ever since my friends boyfriend died last thursday i concluded that God did not take the young man away. What hurts so most about loosing him is that he had a bright future ahead of him, he was so ambitious, very intelligent and God fearing. I met him september 2007 , He comes over to my house a lot with friends, we joke, play around and gives me the craziest maths question to work out.

Anyways i still cant believe he is gone so soon, i cant stop thinking about him. Now am being so real to myself, i used to hate the fact that one day My Mother will die, maybe loose someone so close to me, but the truth is, thats what life is about, there is time to laugh, cry, there is time for everything, Death is a topic i have discussed with my boyfriend and we discussed about how we gonna handle such situation, if i end up marrying him, i really wanna go 1st because i cant handle living my life without him. well thats many years from now, cause i intend to die when am 101 years old. lol.. SeRioUsIly

BoYFrieND OvEr DoSe

Whats wrong with me, i am addicted to my boyfriend, its so unreal, i just want more n more(not wat u thinking) but to be with him everyday.... He is so loving but i need to do sumthing about dis crazy addiction, i miss him so much and i want to be with him everyday and when am at work i think about him, he has occupied my mind...... Although he is not complaining bout the love overload but i can't help it, i just have to express my love to him... Am thinking may b i should relax a little bit. i dont wanna end up possesive or jealous cos dats how it starts...i know he loves me so much, but he is the only man i have ever loved this much.. I just dont even trust my self to let him breath a little. Am scared of loosing him.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to Everyone, I pray that God will grant each and every one their heart desire and so much more......Anyways am so happy that 2008 is over, that year made me cry, hate being alive and also fruastrated. the only good thing that 2008 gave to me is my Boyfriend who is the most incredible creature i have ever met....(hahaha) definately my soul mate. (I can feel it)





List of things i want for 2009 and at the end of it all am gonna see how many am gonna achieve before the year runs out......





1) Good Health


2) Great job


3) Good pay


4) Start my Post Grad course


5) Learn How To Drive


6) Travel to Chicago 3 times this year (Feb. summer and winter)


7) Play the American Lottery


8) Get a Car


9) Pay all my Credit Card Bills


10) Worryless and Love Myself



11) Party More



12) Open a New Savings Account



13) Cry less



14) Travel to london to visit my brothers



15) visit my sisters more often





Thats not much to achieve now, i know i have listed some material things but thats part of life, whenever i achieve anything am gonna tick it off, but really its not hard to achieve i just have to be willing and be more focused thats all... If i have to choose anything first i would say Good health because Health is Wealth, right now i have a really bad magraine and am at work, i wanna be in bed right now but i cant thats why i need a real job thats not so stressful, What i really need is a job, a real job that i can wake up in the morning with a smile on my face not a job that they dont recognise you for your hard work and all your great effort...that just annoys me alot.. so i will keep praying and praying because at this stage thats all i can do because i have made up my mind not to be part of reccession and all....i know its hard but its not gonna be hard for me.





HAPPY NEW YEAR

Whats Happening

Millions watched Barack Obama on the 4th of november become the 1st Black president of United State.... Definately a great feeling to know am part of History........this has been the most talked about election, even teenagers are interested in knowing whats going to happened to them, George W Bush has really made things so bad that every one in the state are really scared about their future.... Does this mean now that Barack is now the president Elect things will go back to normal? Really am so frustrated about the world right now, things aint going normal people are loosing their jobs and i dont feel secure with my job, God forbid but if i loose my job or dont get another job on time am in deep shit....

whatever suitation i find myself am grateful to God atleast am alive and healthy.

Facebook is the best thing now, its better than sugar, its become part of my life and i dont feel okay if i dont go on it in a day, its like starvation u need it to survive, well not really. Facebook has really changed the world, almost everyone i know is on this crazy thing. May God bless mark(whatever) is surname is, he has invented something i know will be around for a long time, i found my cousins, old friends and people that i would never think in a million years i will find, and its the only way i get to check if my friends are doing okay( Photos, status msgs and all)...... why didnt i come up with such idea..

I was watching oprah show the other day and i learnt so much from it, she was talking about future and how u can make all you dreams come true by Faith....not faith as in believing God for something but faith as in u believe that u can get there. there were lots of people who gave their testimony.. jim carey the hollywood comedian said in 1994 he wrote a check of 10 million dollars and left it in his wallet, now why would he do such a thing but he placed it in his wallet for years and he never removed it believing that one day he will make that money and in 1996 or so he was offered 10 million for a movie. now thats not luck thats because he set himself up to that standard, another lady worried so much about not making money in her business and set her self to a weekly target and how many customer she wants to get in a day...the whole thing behind this faith thing is you have to be positive with your thinking. Right now am looking for a job in pharmaceutical and that has really bothered me for a while, and after that i have stopped worring myself about jobs and when am going to get one, am setting myself to a higher standard and where i wanna be in 4 years time and what i want to achieve by then...



like they say your future is in your hands, dont sit down and blame God for everything, Heaven helps those who help them selves.

Life Sucks

wow, finally things are beginning to go well for me this month, well except for that huge amount i have to pay for my post-grad.. but i know God will make a way for me, anyways i am a little bit pissed off at myself for one tiny mistake i made this month which means am not gonna see my boo in october i have to wait a little longer, but am dying to see him, i just wanna spend that one week with him in october, londistance sucks but we really coping well and he is just so wounderful, cant wait for the day when all this will be over when we can finally live in the same country as boyfriend and girlfriend, hmmmm let me re phrase that Man and wife...hahaha one day it will come to past....(please God am so used to him right now and i cant afford not to be with him).

i have a question, my very good friend has a problem and this problem is a shamefull thing to talk to anyone about, i wanna talk to her about it but i dont want her to feel bad or sad i just wanna help her find a way if that involves getting professional help, really i dont like the way she suffers in silence.


oooo my ex was around for a week and really it made me appreciate my present boyfriend in every way, not that i did not but now i know how lucky i am to be with him cuz the ex dude is a useless man and he will continue to be useless....feel sorry for his present girlfriend the unlucky woman..

gotta sleep, to be continued 2mro